message for my past

I've had this idea for a full five minutes and i think i should follow through with it.. here goes then.

dear you,

           right now i don't really feel anything for you, nothing at all, not the love that used to consume me or the bitterness that left me crying. What i know is that i wish you no harm, f'real dear..

           i gave you three years of my life and I'd be lying if i said the whole of that time i was unhappy, because you did make me happy, you made me realize i could be brave enough to risk my heart.. I guess it's neither your fault or mine that the love i laid on the line was never reciprocated in kind.

          So thank you.. for being part of my road to self discovery.. because with you i realized i could actually fight for love, that neither social expectations or my family's pressures can make me turn my back on someone i loved.

          It's weird because in a way I'm thankful that you spent so long hurting me, for at the end of it all i realized that not only was i brave enough to fight for love i was also strong enough to let it go..

          So thank you. for the good times when you loved me and and even the hard times when you almost tore me apart.. You were a part of my life, and even if i had a choice i wouldn't go back, i wont change it all. being with you taught me so much, but one thing i will always remember is i deserve more than what i settled for with you.

           i sincerely hope your happy now, because i am  :)