our way :)

i'll start with Friday, October 8.. Ayi and I we're hella busy the past week so we didn't really get a chance to see each other till Friday, that was hard. Nasanay din kasi ako that i see him everyday, so going for a week without seeing him was one of the hardest things for me.. We call and txt all the time but it's not the same as being together, know what i mean? So we hung out that night, hinatid din nya saken si baby girl, ally.. It was mingled with a feeling of home coming. With him. i dont know man. It just feels like when he holds me i'm home. Am I making sense? ahah. basta miss na miss na miss ko sya noon. so as usual it had to end, he went home to Cavite.

Then Saturday, October 9, i didn't see him at all. He spent the day with his nephews and his sister cos well they haven't seen him for the entire week too, namiss din nila si Ayi. They played basketball and computer games. and round 9pm he hung out with a couple of his high school friends. I wont lie i was expecting him to spend the day with me cos well namiss ko nga sya, but hey i pushed that feeling aside. So we were txting all the while when he was with his friends, Lavinia and Farren, when he suddenly stopped replying, ako naman nagtampo, although i didn't want to make a big deal out of it i just sent him a message saying he should hit me up when he can. He sent me a txt explaining he was just trying to comfort his friend, Lavinia, turns out she was having problems with her husband cos' they dont talk about the problems in their relationship. Boyfriend was talking to her, saying how proud he was of our relationship, of how we tell each other everything, how we discuss what hurts us, what makes us mad, and maybe they should do the same thing.. As per usual i fell asleep while we were texting, but i woke up within minutes, i had this awful dream, where this girl came up to me saying she was with ayi, and then he came up to me, ang sabi nya saken "i dont love you anymore" on some subconscious level i knew i was dreaming but i felt my heart breaking with those words. the minute i woke up i dialed his number crying like a kid but uncaring. I wanted to talk to him so bad, he comforted me, saying it was just a dream, "i wont apologize kasi hindi ako un, eto ako oh, tunay na ayi, pinagmamalaki kita saka ung way naten kay Lavinia right now. Hindi ako ung nasa panaginip mo. The real thing is mahal na mahal kita" i went back to sleep after that, a secure dreamless sleep of the loved girlfriend :)

Sunday, October 9, i went to the mall to buy an eyeliner and I took lil bro with me, he's been doing well at school and i wanted to treat him out with a blizzard from Dairy Queen, so we just met Ayi there. We grabbed something to eat before going upstairs and looking at Cellphones for Ayi's sister. we went home round 7pm and just hung out in my room playing with my niece Kyra. We started talking about what he and Lavinia were discussing the day before, the thing about honesty so i came clean at how hurt i was at something he did.

D: ayoko na kasi isipin, ang petty ko kasi, anliit liit na bagay.

A: miss walang maliit na bagay saten, pano ko malalaman? pano ako mgaadjust, pano ko magbabago kung di mo sasabihin saken?

D: nahihiya kasi ako.

A: saken ka pa nahiya. you're my girl, you're my wife.

how sensitive can my guy be? :) after that talk we spent hours just holding each other, listening to music. not really talking cos i think our hearts were doing that for us..

it was one of the best nights of my life. i cant even do it justice with words. basta, he has made me very very happy :)